Lake

Helping Grandaddy drive the boat
Loving on Uncle Mac

He LOVED his first boat ride. Thanks Will for letting us borrow the life jacket

My sweet boy...love the hat

We had such a great day at the lake today. We missed our friends the Kempers and the Howards, but had some quality family time. Laying out, boat ride, and a delicious dinner made of for the lack of naps from our little man. He was just too excited about everything happening around him.

update....

Friends, I feel so loved. Thanks for the calls, emails, and posts. I am fine...promise, just anxious. My appointment is this Thursday. At first I was disappointed because I really wanted to go this past week, but then my friend Katie told me that was incredibly fast to get in with a specialist. My friend Leann told me she knows of the Dr and that she is really good. So many of you are praying for me, and understand my complete issue with anxiety. Thank you. I love ya. Looking forward to a fun Memorial Day weekend with my family. Have a safe weekend yourself!

More then Conquerers

So this morning, I turned on my music and sat down in my cozy chair with my coffee and grabbed my Dobson book....only to feel the spirit telling me to put that down and get my bible. I got up and opened my bible to Romans, and I feel He led me to Romans 8. What a breath of fresh air for me. I have had a weird couple of days health wise. I haven't felt terrible, just really shaky (sp). I hold a glass and shake, I type and shake....now am I anxious or is this something real. To rule out the "realness" I went to the Dr. yesterday and told her my symptoms. She ran a quick EKG and it came back abnormal....seriously? After she told me my EKG was abnormal she said "now let's listen to your heart..." I told her it was about to pop out of my chest. I left the office yesterday with fear....I am waiting to hear when I have an appt with a cardiologist. My Dr said that it may be the machine, but for peace of mind she wants me to follow up. Thank goodness, I am thankful for her thoroughness, but now my head is spinning. So, this is why God led me to Romans, and why as I sat down to type this Christy Nockels "healing is in your hands" came on. Isn't our God good?

Today I am resting in Him, covered by His love....high, wide and no matter where I am. He is there. I am thankful that NOTHING can keep me from God, and that He has walked before me, He will never leave me, and loves me so much. With Him we are more then conquerors.


Romans 8:29-30 (The Message)
29-30God knew what he was doing from the very beginning. He decided from the outset to shape the lives of those who love him along the same lines as the life of his Son. The Son stands first in the line of humanity he restored. We see the original and intended shape of our lives there in him. After God made that decision of what his children should be like, he followed it up by calling people by name. After he called them by name, he set them on a solid basis with himself. And then, after getting them established, he stayed with them to the end, gloriously completing what he had begun.

I went through and made the you version of this scripture....(Romans 8:29-30 personalized)

God knew what he was doing from the very beginning. He decided from the outset to shape the life of you along the same lines as the life of his Son. The Son stands first in line for you, he restored you. We see the original and intended shape of your life in him. After God made that decision of what you should be like, he followed it up by calling you by name. After he called you by name, he set you on a solid basis with himself. And then, after getting you established, he stayed with you to the end, gloriously completing what he had begun.

Why?

Maybe Sampson would need a new house too...
For some reason I feel like God is really tugging at my heart these days. I am trying to be aware of His promptings and to act accordingly. Honestly, some of the tugging He does is uncomfortable. Some of the tugging I try to justify is me, and not Him and ignore it....but then I realize it was Him. One I am trying to discern is our home. Colin and I are so fortunate. We live in a beautiful house and great neighborhood. Great schools, neighbors, and family minutes away. Over the last six months we have been out and about looking for new houses and we don't know why. It is fun to look...right? I like to imagine our family in a new home, how would we decorate, would it be good for hosting parties, how about the yard....shady,1 acre or 5 acres? can we put in a pool? I try to picture down the road when Camden is in school....will he like having his friends over? I don't know, the biggest thing I look for when walking in a home is will it fit a HUGE table for our family Thanksgiving....is that crazy? I need a room that will hold 20+ family and friends once a year. That is a deal breaker for me (and I would like the laundry room on the same floor with the bedrooms). I guess I enjoy being a hostess, I want to make sure I can entertain my guests and that everyone has a place to sit and chat. I need a good place for food to be served, and a spot where I can put my ipod to play some of my favorite tunes. All this to say....do I want to move or is God calling us to move? I don't know, I am willing....

Lucky

I love this book by James Dobson. I think that I am a wee bit traditional when it comes to family life. I do believe that Colin should be the head of our home and the main bread winner. That I am to clean, cook (I do my best), and care for Camden. I do love that I have the opportunity to work 8 hrs a week. I do believe that if my working outside the home (so few hours) began to take a toll on Camden, I would walk away. I believe my first priority is a mom. I believe that I have been entrusted with a very special gift. I am so thankful for this little guy. He is growing into this sweet little boy...I guess he is a toddler now, I can't accept that my baby is a toddler. He no longer takes any bottles, he eats three meals a day, two snacks, and is almost walking. He has a sweet demeanor and loves to dance. Right now it is a toe tap be bop, but I love it. All this said, he brings me joy. My ability to be a mom is more then I could ever ask for. I am a lucky girl and so thankful for my boy.

Heart

I am such a heart girl. I wear it on my sleeve, I base all my decisions on it. I do this because I believe with all my heart that God lives there. I believe that the Holy Spirit directs me and guides me and knows what is best for me. Do you ever have an issue with what is your heart for your life and what is His heart for your life? I sure do.....I pray that I am better at listening to Him and that my desires begin to fall away so that I all can hear and feel is Him. Would you pray that too? Would you pray that I have no fear in following His plan?

Baby Dedication

Dr Butler happened to be at the Baby Dedication yesterday...we snagged him for a picture. Camden thinks he knows him, but just can't place it.

Big handsome man (spends most of his day standing, but not ready to walk yet)

Jen, Katelyn, Grandma Deb, and Chris came to celebrate with us

Grandma and Grandaddy

Uncle Mac and Aunt Whitney

A very, very proud Mom and Dad

I feel like we dedicated Camden years ago to God. Camden is and will always be His. We have been entrusted with this sweet little man, and we are forever thankful. He is so much fun. Enjoy the pictures from our big day.